Ever wake up and think to yourself, I just don't feel like blogging today?
I'm kind of in that frame of mind at the moment. Part of me would like to write a poem, but I don't feel particularly inspired to do so. On the other hand, there's a niggling little pull inside me that says it's what I really should be doing. Ever get those?
Then there's the feeling of ennui that I get occasionally. That's when I start shaking things up (again!) - changing the look of my blog - the colours, images and arrangement of doohickeys.
Occasionally, my mind's little Devil's Advocate says, Hey, what would happen if you just pulled the plug on the lot?! Ever think like that? I do!
I don't want you to think that I don't love the blog and the interaction with all of you, but some days I just remember when it wasn't a factor in my life and I wasn't tied to the computer-desk, or iPod screen—when I went through my day without a thought of who I should be commenting on or responding to—when I spent my time reading books and baking, and going outside!
BUT, I would miss it, wouldn't I? Wouldn't you, if you decided to pack it in with the computer?
I sometimes wonder how many people there are out there in society who just don't bother with the internet. Sure, they may be at a loss in our overweening world of technology, but I don't think they really care, do they? I kind of envy them.
These are the people who are spending time with family and friends and taking the time to really talk to one another. ( I often feel that I've lost this art.) I am too anxious to get back to this monitor that holds me captive with its overload of images and information.
I'm ashamed to say that I will spend a Saturday morning online, "catching up" with people and their posts, rather than getting up and out and going to the local market. My bad!
I've been watching loads of "Who Do You Think You Are" (both American and British), as well as the latest PBS offering, "Finding Your Roots" and I too, am caught up in the search for ancestors. Quite honestly, I could spend the rest of my life just researching those people of the past (so, if you need any help, give me a shout,) but what has really been impressed upon me, is just how much we are a product of our past, and just how short our time on this earth really is.
This brings me back to my original thought about blogging and the internet. Is this really what I should be doing, or am I wasting time when I should be out there living my life? Are we all just wasting time?
I welcome your thoughts on this.
~Kat
